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Here, I'll be keeping an online journal of some memorable moments. I personally feel that if we don't write down certain things in our lives, we might lose grip of those particular memories. ^__^;; I guess that's part of the reason why I'm so keen on maintaining an online journal/diary. Read a little bit if you wish, but this section is mainly for personal references. Enjoy. =]

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08.26.04 // So Much For My Happy Ending

Music: BBMak - Miss You More

I wonder: how far should a person go to repair broken ties? When is it too late? Hmm, that's already become a poorly phrased question. Allow me to explain... This summer, while I have gotten closer to alot of people, I have also lost connection with alot of other people. Of course, I didn't do it on purpose... but I tend to lose track of things when I don't see certain people around in real life. AIM can only go so far, you know? Well, simply put: Yeah, it's my fault. I'm sorry for being the reason for a potential hurt friendship. There's really no excuse, so I'm just going to throw up the white flag and admit defeat. However, is it wrong for me to try to patch things up now? Better now than never, right? I'd rather not stand around and watch a friendship rot and die-- so I try to start up a conversation again, start from the beginning. And I guess I should've expected a nonchalant response... but it still stung. Maybe it's just been a bad day. Or maybe the person is really angry at me, and would rather not deal with me. But yeah, I tried to talk.. but I think that's far as I got in the conversation. It was one sided and well... =/ I'm really not in the position to complain. Hmmmm... so what am I rambling about here? Do I want forgiveness? I don't know: it's kind of hard to receive forgiveness when I haven't really asked for it. Maybe I should... but each day, it becomes harder and harder to bring up. I'd really have to put myself on the line for it... and what if after all I do, the other person just shrugs it all off? Well, that would be a hard hit... but, it's probably worth it. (Hahaha, yes I'm dumb, I'm giving myself a pep talk. Shut the hell up.) ^^;; I just wish things weren't how it is now. But... nya. Sometimes I just get the feeling the other person is really offended... just the tone, the attitude. o.O;; Meh. It just makes it harder for me to apologize. Because apologizing to someone who sounds like they don't care and say "whatever"... is so VERY hard.

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08.24.04 // Melting Under Blue Skies

Music: Counting Crows - Accidentally in Love

Once again, laziness and Ragnarok Online got the best of me... and in turn, I didn't update here in a month. Ooops, sorry little neglected corner of mine. Once school starts off next week, I promise I'll devote a little bit more attention to this useless website. ^__^;; So what's happened so far? Not much. Ended my job a week or two ago. My boss really appreciated my help this summer, and invited me back to work next year... o_O;; But we'll see about that. I'd much prefer a better job or even an internship next summer. ^^;; But it's nice to know I'm gonna be employed next year no matter what. Hehehe, security is always a good thing, I suppose. o_O;; Money is also good. So, I've just been enjoying these last few weeks with RO (until the little bugger server died and refuses to go up for another week). So nya, watching the Olympics it is.. ^^;; Hmmm let's see what else: tomorrow I'll be going to Six Flags with the teddy bear of mine XD! And yes, I'll finally get to go on a rollercoaster. >_>;; *sweatdrops* About damn time, if you ask me. To sum things up, this summer's been pretty awesome. ^^;; I wish I saw a few more people, but no use in crying over spilt milk now. I'm just glad for spending the time I did with some people (more specifically, a certain person. chu~). ^^;; College'll be interesting... but I'm not sure if it's gonna be good or not. ^^;; Things'll be hard with everyone so far away from each other. So we'll see. Que sera, sera. ^^;;

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